I couldn’t write this Monday because I was having a surreal visit from my ex mother in law. The school’s had in service days and so she had brought my daughter up to visit for a couple of days and had literally just invited herself to stay.
I have said previously that I have always made a point of keeping things okay between my ex and I but having my ex in law over to stay felt quite odd. She and I have always got along and that hasn’t changed, I listened to her moaning about how my ex was messy and agreed because her expectation for me to do all the household chores was a bugbear of mine (I didn’t mind doing them, just the expectation that it was okay for her to mess up everything and not help)
The visit went smoothly, I got rid of half the boxes I have been storing in my garage that my ex left when she moved out, only a half dozen left belonging to the ex father in law that she has has promised to bring up and drop off to him.
The weirdness of the situation was worth it for the cuddles with my daughter, but it did mean no time for DeeDee.
Well, almost no time, I spent a couple of hrs trawling a few online shops and purchased some eye shadow, a dark wine coloured lipstick and some sales clothes. I was hoping they would have arrived by now, but it is so exciting I can’t wait!
It did make me wonder when I caught sight of myself in the mirror why I do not get excited about the thought of ordering mens clothes – I could look pretty dapper if I chose, but the whole prospect feels – meh.
I also sat and shaped my nails last night, they are at optimal length for me and would look really nice if I was brave enough to go and get them done, but if I don’t shape them then they will start to catch and break. This buys me a couple of weeks of not hating my hands when I see them and having that nice sensation of my nails making contact on the keyboard rather than just my finger pads.
I also sent off some hair samples to a lab to do an intolerance test for my son and I. Now the science behind them is sketchy at best from what internet research I have done, but I figured it couldn’t hurt – according to my results I need to cut out all grains as my body reacts to them, the same with cinnamon which is a favourite flavour, coconut and mustard (with a caveat to be careful of the broccoli and kale type plants) Given that I have been switching back to a more Gluten Free and Dairy Free diet for my son whose behaviour does seem to be linked to the foods he consumes even if he has tasted negative for coeliacs, this is quite a limiting diet.
My veg and fruit intake has gone through the roof, but I am struggling to give up bread, it has always been a mainstay and and even GF bread is better than no bread (only the artisan loafs are even close in taste and texture, yet the price is doubled for a worse experience) – though the sweet potato wraps are too strong in taste to be nice with a salad inside them.
As far as I know the intolerance lab could literally just be cutting and pasting common things that people react to and sending it to me in an email why they throw my hair sample in the bin – but if it mentally helps me to switch to a healthier way of eating then the money was still worth it. Adding more veg to my plate is easy, removing the pasta/pies/bread/rice from it is really difficult.
I feel like I am rambling so will cut myself off now, but take care